Random thoughts...

Sometimes, I think of the past, how sometime I wish I turn back the hands of time. Make things better or make things right. some times I wish things could just go back to the way they were. When we were young and nothing else matter. But I know, we cant. I know some heartaches are unable to be mended. I know sometimes things happen for a reason. Sometimes we have to just move on. And maybe someday we will find each other again. Maybe....

"Beautiful Disaster"

-Kelly Clarkson

He drowns in his dreams

An exquisite extreme I know

He’s as damned as he seems

And more heaven than a heart could hold

And if I try to save him

My whole world could cave in

It just ain't right

It just ain't right

Oh and I don't know

I don't know what he's after

But he's so beautiful

Such a beautiful disaster

And if I could hold on

Through the tears and the laughter

Would it be beautiful?

Or just a beautiful disaster

He's magic and myth

As strong as what I believe

A tragedy with

More damage than a soul should see

And do I try to change him?

So hard not to blame him

Hold on tight

Hold on tight

Oh 'cause I don't know

I don't know what he's after

But he’s so beautiful

Such a beautiful disaster

And if I could hold on

Through the tears and the laughter

Would it be beautiful?

Or just a beautiful disaster

I'm longing for love and the logical

But he's only happy hysterical

I'm waiting for some kind of miracle

Waited so long

So long

He’s soft to the touch

But frayed at the end he breaks

He’s never enough

And still he's more than I can take

Oh 'cause I don't know

I don't know what he's after

But he's so beautiful

Such a beautiful disaster

And if I could hold on

Through the tears and the laughter

Would it be beautiful?

Or just a beautiful disaster

He’s beautiful

Such a beautiful disaster

Welcome home...

Well me and Kaydee are all settled in our place, back on the Rez. There is still unpacking to do, but the moving stuffs and cleaning of the old place is all done. So yay!! no more Casa Grande. But like I mentioned there is still lots more to do. Unpacking is now my challenge; I hope to tackle everything within the next couple of days, so hopefully we will be all settled in my next week!