I finally decided to write in my blog again. Its been about a year since I've last written an entry. I have several that I started and never got the chance to finish.... So much has been going on lately, some good and some bad. The past year has been an exciting one, but I'm looking forward to the new year...
Welcome 2009!
Friday, January 2, 2009
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
This time last year…
Usually a person reflects on a year in their life around New Years… but today is a significant day for me.
Around this time last year, my daughter was also hospitalized for a skin infection known as cellulitis. She was only two at the time; she spent a week in the hospital, hooked up to intravenous medicines, which were given to her in two-four hour increments. Her leg was swollen with blisters and she would cry every time the doctors came in to check it. We still don’t know what caused the infection, where she got it from and the probability of her ever getting it again. But it was an experience; it was one of the most difficult parental times. She would cry every night, screaming she wanted to go home. She would want to play and be her silly self, but her movements were limited because of the IV she had in her arm. I never left her side; it broke my heart to have my little one be in SO much pain. It was a difficult time for all of us.
She made a full recovery and still has a bit of a scar today. Every time she get a bug bite, I rush her to the hospital, I think the doctors think I’m overprotective, but I don’t ever want to put my baby through an ordeal like again.
Well today is my official first year anniversary as a Health Information Management Specialist. This time last year, I began my first management position within the Health Care industry of my community’s government system. I made it, when I first took this position I was really nervous as to if I wanted to keep on ahead within the position. I know I wrote several posts regarding my hesitance in taking this job and some of the times I thought about giving up. But I made it thru the first year. WOW, I have learned so much about my people, the diseases we face together and the politics that divide us. I learned about possible futures of my people and ways and obstacles that we must overcome to survive. I learned how to take better care of myself and my family. I learned that the 21st century if full of opportunities for my tribe, if we in fact begin to listen and learn. We may learn to overcome the disease that plagues SO many of us. Even if I play only a small part in the big scheme of things, I’m VERY happy to be apart of it.
Lots of other things have changed over this year… some things for the better, some things not to sure if they are actually better… I’ve made a new life for myself and Kaydee. I’ve made new friends, lost some old ones. But in all, I think change is good. I’m thankful for the life experiences I’ve had, both good and bad. And I look forward to all the new ones that await me…
Around this time last year, my daughter was also hospitalized for a skin infection known as cellulitis. She was only two at the time; she spent a week in the hospital, hooked up to intravenous medicines, which were given to her in two-four hour increments. Her leg was swollen with blisters and she would cry every time the doctors came in to check it. We still don’t know what caused the infection, where she got it from and the probability of her ever getting it again. But it was an experience; it was one of the most difficult parental times. She would cry every night, screaming she wanted to go home. She would want to play and be her silly self, but her movements were limited because of the IV she had in her arm. I never left her side; it broke my heart to have my little one be in SO much pain. It was a difficult time for all of us.
She made a full recovery and still has a bit of a scar today. Every time she get a bug bite, I rush her to the hospital, I think the doctors think I’m overprotective, but I don’t ever want to put my baby through an ordeal like again.
Well today is my official first year anniversary as a Health Information Management Specialist. This time last year, I began my first management position within the Health Care industry of my community’s government system. I made it, when I first took this position I was really nervous as to if I wanted to keep on ahead within the position. I know I wrote several posts regarding my hesitance in taking this job and some of the times I thought about giving up. But I made it thru the first year. WOW, I have learned so much about my people, the diseases we face together and the politics that divide us. I learned about possible futures of my people and ways and obstacles that we must overcome to survive. I learned how to take better care of myself and my family. I learned that the 21st century if full of opportunities for my tribe, if we in fact begin to listen and learn. We may learn to overcome the disease that plagues SO many of us. Even if I play only a small part in the big scheme of things, I’m VERY happy to be apart of it.
Lots of other things have changed over this year… some things for the better, some things not to sure if they are actually better… I’ve made a new life for myself and Kaydee. I’ve made new friends, lost some old ones. But in all, I think change is good. I’m thankful for the life experiences I’ve had, both good and bad. And I look forward to all the new ones that await me…
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Yesterday's post...
I decided to take a quick break from my work to write a quick update for my blog…
Work is going rather well… my days are super busy lately, and I end up taking all my reading material home. I really need to get one of those fancy briefcase bag things. I saw one at Target I liked, but I just haven’t had the extra funds or time to go really look for one. Anyway, I like to take my work home with me as well. Mostly the stuff I need to read, but just don’t have the time to at my desk during the day. Anyway.
Yesterday, I got a flu shot; it didn’t really hurt too much or bother me. You know how everyone says, don’t tense up or your arm will be sore. I didn’t tense up or anything, now my arm is starting to bother me a little. I haven’t gotten a flu shot in years, I’m afraid to get shots; I can’t stand the sight of blood or needles. One time a couple years back, I went to see the movie, “Red Dragon” with my boyfriend at the time. One of the scenes had SO much blood; I almost passed out right in the theater. Now that would have been SO embarrassing!! I just put my head down, between my legs and tried to keep my composure. It’s pretty funny thinking of that now; man, I’m a dweeb!
Me and Kaydee are still settling into the new place. Things are coming together a little at a time. I emptied most of the boxes and piled the stuff to sort thru in my office/spare bedroom. I really need to get a couch!! Or something, maybe a big bean bag?? Right now, a friend lent me a chair and I have this old butterfly chair that I’m using. My coffee or side table is one of Kaydee’s toy bins. She has a big Mater blowup chair she sits on. It’s embarrassing a little not to have furniture yet. Friends always want to visit, but I have to let them know, I have no couch, so we have to sit on the floor. I hate that. :)
Work is going rather well… my days are super busy lately, and I end up taking all my reading material home. I really need to get one of those fancy briefcase bag things. I saw one at Target I liked, but I just haven’t had the extra funds or time to go really look for one. Anyway, I like to take my work home with me as well. Mostly the stuff I need to read, but just don’t have the time to at my desk during the day. Anyway.
Yesterday, I got a flu shot; it didn’t really hurt too much or bother me. You know how everyone says, don’t tense up or your arm will be sore. I didn’t tense up or anything, now my arm is starting to bother me a little. I haven’t gotten a flu shot in years, I’m afraid to get shots; I can’t stand the sight of blood or needles. One time a couple years back, I went to see the movie, “Red Dragon” with my boyfriend at the time. One of the scenes had SO much blood; I almost passed out right in the theater. Now that would have been SO embarrassing!! I just put my head down, between my legs and tried to keep my composure. It’s pretty funny thinking of that now; man, I’m a dweeb!
Me and Kaydee are still settling into the new place. Things are coming together a little at a time. I emptied most of the boxes and piled the stuff to sort thru in my office/spare bedroom. I really need to get a couch!! Or something, maybe a big bean bag?? Right now, a friend lent me a chair and I have this old butterfly chair that I’m using. My coffee or side table is one of Kaydee’s toy bins. She has a big Mater blowup chair she sits on. It’s embarrassing a little not to have furniture yet. Friends always want to visit, but I have to let them know, I have no couch, so we have to sit on the floor. I hate that. :)
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Starting Over...
Well its been sometime since I've written in this blog. I have been so preoccupied with the daily trials and tribulations of life, that I've just haven't had the time. Or i really don't have much to say. Honestly, I doubt anyone is really reading this. I guess I just write it, for my own amusement. :)
Well I'm starting over, in all aspects of my life. I thought about starting my blog over, but I think I got some interesting thoughts and/or opinions written thus far, I really don't want to erase them entirely. So here I go with a new post entitled 'Starting Over...'
Gosh SO much new developments. Well first and foremost, I've moved. I'm no longer living with mom, putting up with the random drama. Its sort of sad to say that and probably nothing I should be sharing, but living back at home for those brief months, I remembered EXACTLY why I moved out in the first place. It was nice to not have to worry about some of the responsibilities of running and managing a household. But I had enough. SO now me and Kaydee are on our own once more. Its nice, I have a large place, too big for just us. I need some furniture and a few things here in there but its still nice to have my own again. Kaydee is still getting used to the place, but she'll settle in soon.
Halloween is coming up and she wants to be Ninja Turtle, the blue one. Shes really excited to go trick or treating, but still a little nervous about all the scary things that come with Halloween. So well see how she does. Her dance classes are going rather well, she seems to be enjoying her time with her instructor, Dad thinks she needs to be in something else, Karate maybe. But I still want her to be my little princess.
Its sort of nice to write in my blog again, maybe this go round (my third) I will think of more interesting things to write. Hopefully...so until then...
Well I'm starting over, in all aspects of my life. I thought about starting my blog over, but I think I got some interesting thoughts and/or opinions written thus far, I really don't want to erase them entirely. So here I go with a new post entitled 'Starting Over...'
Gosh SO much new developments. Well first and foremost, I've moved. I'm no longer living with mom, putting up with the random drama. Its sort of sad to say that and probably nothing I should be sharing, but living back at home for those brief months, I remembered EXACTLY why I moved out in the first place. It was nice to not have to worry about some of the responsibilities of running and managing a household. But I had enough. SO now me and Kaydee are on our own once more. Its nice, I have a large place, too big for just us. I need some furniture and a few things here in there but its still nice to have my own again. Kaydee is still getting used to the place, but she'll settle in soon.
Halloween is coming up and she wants to be Ninja Turtle, the blue one. Shes really excited to go trick or treating, but still a little nervous about all the scary things that come with Halloween. So well see how she does. Her dance classes are going rather well, she seems to be enjoying her time with her instructor, Dad thinks she needs to be in something else, Karate maybe. But I still want her to be my little princess.
Its sort of nice to write in my blog again, maybe this go round (my third) I will think of more interesting things to write. Hopefully...so until then...
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Its me again....
WOW!! July 5th is the last post I've done...thats almost two months ago...Sorry!! (Honestly not sure if anyone is actually reading my posts.) I figured its time to do some updating...
Well recent news...I just got back from Las Vegas. I spent three days on a managers work session for my job. It was a nice little get away and it was nice to spend some time with my co-workers on a more personal level. But I have come back with a little less money in my pockets and I also picked up a slight sinus infection. So I'm a little under the weather. I have some photos from my trip, that I'll post up later.
My Kaydence Monster started Combination class on Saturday. She does 25 minutes of tap, 25 of Ballet and 10 minutes of tumbling. She was SO excited and I was glad I was able to make it to her first class. She did wonderful; one requirement for the class was she had to change from her tap shoes to her ballet shoes without any assistance. She did great!! She really seemed to enjoy the class and didn't want to leave. Its my hopes that she's able to get into something that will teach her a lot about how to be responsible, and a little more refined. Not sure if that makes sense, but i just want her to do something she will cherish and enjoy.
Well I'm coming up on my 27th birthday. Three more years and I will be 30!! I don't know what I want to do for my birthday, something fun and different. We'll see what comes up.
There is so much to write in my blog...lots of updates but I need to get ready for the week so I have lots of other stuffs to do... I'll update more later.
Well recent news...I just got back from Las Vegas. I spent three days on a managers work session for my job. It was a nice little get away and it was nice to spend some time with my co-workers on a more personal level. But I have come back with a little less money in my pockets and I also picked up a slight sinus infection. So I'm a little under the weather. I have some photos from my trip, that I'll post up later.
My Kaydence Monster started Combination class on Saturday. She does 25 minutes of tap, 25 of Ballet and 10 minutes of tumbling. She was SO excited and I was glad I was able to make it to her first class. She did wonderful; one requirement for the class was she had to change from her tap shoes to her ballet shoes without any assistance. She did great!! She really seemed to enjoy the class and didn't want to leave. Its my hopes that she's able to get into something that will teach her a lot about how to be responsible, and a little more refined. Not sure if that makes sense, but i just want her to do something she will cherish and enjoy.
Well I'm coming up on my 27th birthday. Three more years and I will be 30!! I don't know what I want to do for my birthday, something fun and different. We'll see what comes up.
There is so much to write in my blog...lots of updates but I need to get ready for the week so I have lots of other stuffs to do... I'll update more later.
Thursday, July 5, 2007
Random thoughts...
Sometimes, I think of the past, how sometime I wish I turn back the hands of time. Make things better or make things right. some times I wish things could just go back to the way they were. When we were young and nothing else matter. But I know, we cant. I know some heartaches are unable to be mended. I know sometimes things happen for a reason. Sometimes we have to just move on. And maybe someday we will find each other again. Maybe....
"Beautiful Disaster"
-Kelly Clarkson
He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight
Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long
He’s soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He’s never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
He’s beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
Welcome home...
Well me and Kaydee are all settled in our place, back on the Rez. There is still unpacking to do, but the moving stuffs and cleaning of the old place is all done. So yay!! no more Casa Grande. But like I mentioned there is still lots more to do. Unpacking is now my challenge; I hope to tackle everything within the next couple of days, so hopefully we will be all settled in my next week!
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